Shattered. Empty and lost/lust is how I feel. For the longest time I had a solid wall around my heart.
Nothing, no one could penetrate.. Until recently
Feelings and emotions I kept out are suddenly breaking through.. Crack by crack, one after the other, it’s all tumbling down. I find myself in a dilemma, Mixed emotions and shit. All meeting at this crossroads and its conflicting.
I never felt like this before. It’s a new experience, a different field. I’m starting to “feel” and I don’t know how I feel about that.
It’s deeper than deep, darker and lonelier than a dead person suddenly awakening in his cuffin. I’m screaming out for help but it falls on deaf ears.
I need to let it all out then build again. I need to pull it all down and pull it back up, but this time not alone.
Merry dark Christmas